Stages of life. Dulu dengar lagu "Heartsong" by Talib Al-Habib, sampai phrase "This worldly traveller is yearning for hope.." teringat dengan jahiliah-jahiliah diri yang melekat-lekat susah nak buang.
ikhtilat, gedik, attention seeker, ujian hati, bossy, kerek, boyband die-hard-fan, lagu ntah pape, u name it, semua tu karakter dulu yang kadang-kadang bangga, kadang rasa 'loserrrr'nyaaa ada perangai camnih. huhu
and now.. the phrase "this worldly traveller is yearning for hope.." indicates something more significant in my life.
hope.. harapan.. untuk terus kekal dalam perjuangan.. *susah... T.T
kusangkakan panas sampai ke petang, rupanya hujan di tengah hari..kuikuikui
sometimes you feel like, you just wanna end this. to end this life, cuz nothing worth living anymore, any longer.
or it is just too hard to get through? T.T
biarpun perjuangan inilah yang diimpi-impikan sangat sewaktu ketika dahulu,
and myb the reason Allah hold me here pun atas doa-doa dulu,
"the eagerness to do dakwah, no matter what"
and now?
susah sangat ke aten... huuu
berjuang kerana apa..
kenapa perlukan support..
and if yes pun, its hard to find anyone yang boleh provide support that needed,
tapi takkanlah sebab tu je you wanna end this?
remember hani, allah is always by your side,
The One who listens to you when no one wants to listen,
The One who gets you back up when no one is there to lift you up,
just remember that hani!
even awak kahwin nanti pun, tiada apa boleh menjanjikan support tu boleh ada k?
hanya Allah!
so dont choose to get married if you're not 'ready' ok? maktub.
nway, titik tolak pertama you wanna do this, why?
ask yourself.
too many dalil aten. its so hard for you to deny that.
after all, its only for Allah..the Loving God,
tak cukup ke dengan reason tu je?
this is like, a chance to elevate your status in the Eyes of Allah..
tak cukup ke dengan reason tu?
hakikat perjuangan ni memang tak mudah..
you have to deal with people,
from all walks of life,
selfless,
korban tenaga, fikiran, masa, apa yang ada pada diri,
kadang-kadang nak put up with the demands,
"the demanding era"
tu belum serabut dengan konflik diri, confuse this and that lagi
i know its hard..... but fasbir,
a little bit longer,
and u'll be fine.. :)
"berjuang berkorban demi cinta, mengenal jalan makna bahagia.."
kekuatan iman, cukuplah itu.
kita kuat dengan adanya Allah..
kuat bukan untuk fikrah duniawi..
kuat hingga kaki kita melangkah syurga..
kuat hingga dapat layakkan diri masuk syurga..
bukan senang tau?
"berjuang mencari iman dan taqwa, perisai menempuh pancaroba, penentu tempat aman bahagia.."
soleh wa musleh, meletakkan Allah dan Rasul paling tinggi dalam hati, inshaAllah..
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